Never

Never 

She never felt more connected to anyone, ever before.

Never loved anyone as much as she loved him. Her unconditional, infinite love grew for him every day, hour, minute, second. Beyond just a physical attraction. The comfort of his arms wrapped around her as she slept, was never felt with anyone else. The devastating blow of him breaking her heart, leaving her feeling a sorrow never felt before. Yet she continued to love him with all the broken pieces of herself. 

She was the Marie Thérèse to his Pablo Picasso.

Her View

Her View

She never considered herself drop dead gorgeous. Yet she knew her soul was where her true beauty radiated. She loved with a passion so rarely found. The love she had given unconditionally, seemed to always been taken for granted. Or perhaps she loved with a passion so intense, it could make even the strongest man feel inferior of such greatness.  

 The heart in her chest, wild and untamable. Rattling within the cage of her ribs. Torn, broken and damaged. Unrequited love leaving a gash much too deep to heal. She's far too weary to continue fighting a battle that can't seem to be won. Her heart deteriorating, after each lost battle. Becoming thinner and more delicate than hidaka washi. The slightest wind could cause it to crumble and blow away into nonexistence.

 Tears decorating her face. Wondering... when did the world's passion, honor and loyalty die?

Trapped

Trapped

Trapped underground.

Muck filling my mouth, making it impossible to breathe.

Roots tangled around my legs.

I can't get free.

My body so weary.

My soul beyond exhausted.

Teetering on that very fine line between giving up or continuing on.

The promise of rest, in letting go. 

So sweet and alluring.

Yet there's a strong pull that compels me to continue trying to claw my way to the surface.

I have no bearings of knowing how much further I have to travel.

At the surface, the world carries on.

Oblivious of my struggle to escape from the depths. 

They

They

My demons and I are growing closer and closer. 

When they first came, I could only hear their voices. Not clearly, but just enough to be aware of their presence. In the dark, my demons hold me tightly, like a straitjacket, all while they sing their twisted lullabies. They stroke my hair with their gnarled fingers, like a gentle lover. Telling me to let go. Let go of the ideal of true love. It seems I've outgrown it or it's outgrown me. Like a child's security blanket that once enveloped me like a cocoon. Now tattered, threadbare and can barely reach my feet.

Their points so convincing, the evidence so overwhelming. How could I not surrender? Giving my all, believing in love. A fairy-tale only told to females to give them something to distract them from the essence of power. I'm waving the white flag. I can't take anymore of the screaming in my head that lives in the silence. It sends me curled in the fetal position clawing at my ears. They win! 

Grey

Grey 

The darkest shade of grey. The color of my soul that's turning darker with each passing day that you're gone. Slipping on that slippery slope to the abyss of everlasting darkness feasting on what's left of me. Dust from the crushed pieces of my overused heart, swirling about. Replacing the joyous flutter of butterfly wings, tickling my fourth chakra. Frolicking in the darkness gradually giving me comfort. Strengthening my severely, damaged armour. Becoming the new whetstone for my blades. 

My Sacrifice

My Sacrifice 

Our meeting seemed to be by chance. Or was it destined for our paths to intersect? The connection between us, so strong. Perhaps too strong that only one of us could handle it. Drawn not only to the charismatic person you skillfully exuded, but also the pain you carried within, like a life sentence of duty and sorrow. Seeing you was like seeing an unexpected, beautiful splash of color on a black and white photo. Your essence possessed a luminescence, not known to this plane of existence. My heart not only hearing your cries, but listened to every note. Melancholic yet alluring to my soul. I chose to give you, the best part of me. My heart, to save yours. My sacrifice.