Dancing with the Devil

Dancing with the Devil 

Dancing with him, left me spent. 

Twirling round and round, till my feet were begging for solace that would never come. Mistook the flames he ignited in my core for genuine adoration. 

Oblivious to the truth of that tingling inside was in fact my soul being consumed.

 Piece by piece. Dance after dance. 

Falling into degradation, foolishly confusing it with love. 

Surprisingly when he left me spinning on the floor, dancing alone like a whirling dervish.

 I felt abandoned and longed for more lies. Longed for one more dance with the Devil. 

You, I, Us

You, I, Us

Fight for me as if I'm the keeper of your last breath.

And my love will nourish your soul.

Hold me close. Keep me safe.

And I'll love you for infinite lifetimes.

Crown me as the Queen of your realm.

And we shall make the universe our own.
Join me and lets live here on Earth, in our personal heaven.

I Want

I Want

I want to hold your hand and walk by your side.

I want to look into your eyes and see the beautiful soul that dwells within.

I want to build a life with you and live our lives in blissful peace.

I want to say "I love you", in a thousand different languages and deliver it wrapped in a single kiss.

I want to show you a love that can only be described as mythical.

I want euphoric nirvana only with you.

Only You

Only You

You're so far away and it keeps me awake at night.

Tossing and turning, thinking of you.

Watching shadows dance the Tango across my walls.

Feeling my heart beating in sync to the syllables of 

your name, as it escapes from my lips.

Sleep finally embraces me and of course

my dreams feature my desires of a 

life with you.

My best friend.

The love of my life.

No one else, but you.

Falling

Falling

What more do I have to give?

What else is there for you to take from me,

when I've given all that I have?

How else can I prove to you that

my love is not a phantom,

not a figment of your imagination?

You hurt, but it is I who sheds the tears.

You get cut, but it is I who bleeds.

I jumped from the cliff, chuteless, falling into 

the seeming endless cavern of love.

So sure I could fly.

You stayed cliff-side watching me

plummeting to the bottom.

Alone.

No safety net.

Thud.

Sweetest Dream

Sweetest Dream 

In the dead of night, when evening unnoticeably turns to morning. I find myself watching you sleep. Curious of what dances across your mind. I can't help but to smile from the abundance of endless adoration I have for you. Words of love drip from my moist tongue. Praying my affirmations find their way into your subconscious, guiding you to your sweetest dream. Having no doubts upon waking that I'm absolutely real. 

Spring and My Soul

Spring and My Soul 

I sit on the floor, gazing out the opened patio door. The sky adopting the color of cooled ash. The trees sway together as if dancing in an impromptu ballet. The breeze erratically swirling about, tickling my nose with it's fresh scent. The rain kissing the windowpanes like a long lost lover. Lazy, rainy, Spring mid morning, calming my soul.

Anxious

Anxious 

I can't concentrate.

My mind's a mess.

Cluttered.

Anxiety's cruel grip tightens around my throat.

Constricting the flow of sweet air.

Heart racing.

Legs weak.

Hands shaking uncontrollably.

Tears resting at the rim of my eyes.

My demons dining heartily on my weakness.

Again.

Beyond the Great and Terrible Ten

Beyond the Great and Terrible Ten

Indescribable, unfathomable and relentless.

The emptiness of falling into a never ending  abyss so dark, no light could ever penetrate it.

Pain so deep, that it goes far beyond a scale of one to ten. Agony that makes you pray for death.

Unrequited love or lost love.

My Pillow

My Pillow 

If my pillow could talk, you would know all my secrets.

All the times I cried, yelled and screamed into it, to muffle my pain.

You'd see all the dreams I dreamt of you. All the pleasantly vivid and the heartbreaking nightmares.

You'd know how many times I woke up screaming from premonition like visions and salty waterfalls streaming down my face.

You'd know how I pray for you and your happiness, nightly.

If my pillow could talk, you'd know how deeply I truly love you.

The Beast

The Beast

She loved fiercely and with the entirety of everything she was made of.

Her heart bruised, busted, and broken, but still beating.

Everyday she struggled against giving up on her belief in true love. Fighting to keep that tiny shred of purity and innocence alive.

The continuances of heartbreak thrashing upon her like a Leviathan. Determined to conquer her and extinguish that glimmer of hope.

Gone

Gone

I drink a lot more, since you've been gone.

It only helps me sleep, when I can't; which seems to be nightly.

The only positive thing I get from it, is having constant dreams of you.

Holding and caressing you.

Getting your intoxicating scent upon my fingertips.

Only for me to awake with my throat drier than a desert.

Desperately clinging to rapidly fading dreams, just for additional seconds of bliss.

My soul, desolate without you.

Restless

Restless 

Tossing and turning.

Desperate to find some comfort.

First too hot. Then much too cold.

Sheets messy and jumbled, like the thoughts in my mind.

The weight of infinite pressure upon my shoulders, keep them feeling like a slab of cement.

Meditation is of no avail, for the silence only amplifies the voices in my head.

Nowhere to escape. Not a soul to comprehend what's in my mind, without questioning the validity of my sanity.

So I put on a smile and say "I'm fine".

Death of a Valkyrie

Death of a Valkyrie 

I wanna to cry out loud, but I can't bring myself to do it.

I wanna cry out for someone to console me and understand, but I won't; for it makes me look weak.

So I scream into a fluffy pillow to muffle the sound, so the neighbors won't hear through thin walls.

Hope they're oblivious to the sound of my soul dying.

The deafening sounds of a Valkyrie having her wings ripped from her back.

Her heart gutted out, by the one she loved with every inch of all her lives, past, present and future.

Salty tears blurring her vision.

Sobs choking her to dry heaves.

Clutching the left side of her chest where the source of the pain radiates through her body.

Practically paralyzed from the indescribable pain.

Praying for the end of existence, to escape wave after wave of pain crushing what's left of her shell.

Through Time

Through Time

How could I fathom a life without you;

when my soul has searched continuously, lifetime after lifetime till I found you?

To love you more than I did, in the last.

Homesick

Homesick

For me home is a person.

The one, I think of when I wake.

The one, who visits me in my dreams.

The one, I pray infinite happiness for.

The one, I long to connect souls with.

Since you've been away, I've struggled to fill my days.

Struggling to traverse this labyrinth of my mind.

For it's filled with endless corridors and corners of thoughts and images.

Struggling against the sickness of being far from home.

Much too far from you.

Just Short of a Man

Just Short of a Man

It makes her heart heavy when you lie to her.

Portraying it to seem like she's loosing her mind.

Refusing to admit the promising things you've stated, over the decade you've possessed her heart.

Senilic of the wrongs you've reluctantly admitted too.

Fighting to your rottening core to forget.

She's left trying to hold on to the hope, of you rediscovering the honor of the man she knew you to be.

Birds of a Feather

Birds of a Feather 

Like a modern day Georgie Porgie, breaking hearts. Kissing girls, then making them cry. Or perhaps it was just the heart of my own. 

The next man damning and cursing your name for crushing my heart and attempting to extinguish my light. Only for him to do the same. Ripping and tearing at scar tissue that was thought to be healed.

Like a raven mocking the crow for having black plumage.

Refusing to own your narcissistic ways.

Another Man's Jewel

Another Man's Jewel 

The exciting rush of new love. Turned into familiar, comfortable love. Turned into forgetfulness and overshadowed appreciation.

You've mindlessly tossed aside the little things, she held dear to her heart.

You've become too occupied with the fleeting novelty of relishing in the attention and luster of other jewels. Bestowing compliments of how brightly and beautifully they shine. Never pondering of how even intricately cut glass can shine brilliantly in the right light. Failing to compliment and show admiration of the priceless jewel that's already in your possession. Treating her as if she's a dull pebble lacklustered of glow or value.
Not until your priceless jewel becomes another man's will you realize the value of she.

Starving

Starving 

Have I not given you my all?

Was it all in vain?

Or am I truly not enough for you?

Was I merely entertainment?

There for you to watch me let down my walls and trustingly give you the best of me. Love you to unknown depths than any man before.

Rendering me terrified of letting anyone else in.

Finding amusement of how I'd rather wither away, than be nourished by another.

All cause I'm still starving for you.

As Time Pass

As Time Pass 

Although I didn't recognize your face, my heart knew your soul.

Falling in love with you, was destined.

A lifetime of love transcending through time.

Finding each other through vibrations.

Like magnets getting stronger as time passes by.

A love seeming too mythical to be real.

Oh! If only, you shared my faith!

Unstoppable

Unstoppable 

How do you stop loving the one?

When there's not a single day, they don't cross your mind?

The one you know to your core, without a doubt is meant for you. 

That missing piece that doesn't make you whole, but makes you better.

It's like asking...

How can I stop the rain, during a hurricane?

Jar of Pennies

Jar of Pennies

At my bedside lies a big jar of pennies.

Some new, more old.

Shiny, dull and some picturesquely laced in patina.

Found in different places and seasons.

Yet they all posses a common reason. 

A jar of pennies being all my happy thoughts and prayers for you.

Pretending

Pretending 

I can't pretend that I don't love you.

When I love you more than any man before.

I can't pretend I don't need you.

When you're everything I've ever wanted.

I can't pretend that I'm not afraid of losing you.

When good things always seem to come to an end.

I can't deny what my soul needs.

When what my soul needs is you. 

Year After Year

Year After Year

When I think of you, I can't help but to smile.

When I see you, it's like seeing color in a world of only black and white.

When I hear your voice, it's like the perfect melody moving my soul.

When I'm near you, I can't seem to sit still.

It's astonishing how you have the power to make me feel like a giddy school girl, experiencing love for the first time.

Day after day.

Year after year.

Lifetime after lifetime.

I know it'll never change.

I Loved You

I Loved You 

I've loved you the best way I could.

Wholly and with all that I am.

The most sacred part of me crushed, unrecognizable and decimated to dust, by your hand.

Through the devastation, I loved you still.

Devoted to a fault.

Never once caring how foolish I looked to others.

It wasn't their love. It was mine.

Daily I pray for your happiness, yet fail at doing the same for myself.