Metamorphosis

Metamorphosis 

Continuation of restless nights, since the death of my heart. Unable to concentrate. My mind plagued by thoughts of him. Searching my mind for any missed clues, that led to my demise. Each day that there's no choice in facing the public, I use every ounce of energy to mask my pain, yet I fail. The fire that once lived inside, extinguished. Multiple times in a day, tears flow endlessly. Looking up to the heavens, desperately wanting to scream out for help. But the ashes of who I was get in the way. Only the residue of my heart remains, leaving a sooty stain within this empty shell. Finding a need to seclude myself from the world. Terrified of letting anyone in, for risk of infecting others. Even my Muse cries with me. More than enough tears to create a new ocean. An excruciating metamorphosis. Someone pray for me, cause I've forgotten how.